March 09, 2006
Facing west; while lying on my bed, It was about 6:30 AM and 2 degree celcius outside, my alarm clock went off and my brain broadcasted a signal to search an escape route to reality. What was the reality? It took my brain 2 nano seconds to establish it. "Nothing ordinary about it...” kept saying a region in my brain that was keeping track of the last 4 months.
But in something extraordinary there are always ordinary things like taking a bath, putting clothes on, breakfast and catching a bus that fade into the background... and the mind records them very differently, like it never happened...
Almost 8:00 AM now and I am sitting on the second last seat on an express bus to downtown Vancouver with the Quran in my hand and a bag containing 80Gigs of binary information that I am hoping to connect with my workstation at VFS to spit out 14 minutes and 22 seconds of moving images. I choose to call this duration of moving images "Innerspace and all that..." partially because it suited the subject matter and partially my inspiring brother once wrote it on piece of paper... and I digged it too much.
It is now 10:00 AM and I am in the audio lab while the new digital design batch is having their class on Protools and Reason. I am dongling around in Protools to adjust the levels of the background score and the narration. I bounce it to disk and leave the room. Over about 20 steps from this room is the "Orange Lab", where my class fellows have been living for the past 2 months. Literally, they have been sleeping and working there. The lab is a mess. With papers, clothes, pillows, and bottles are crowding most of space the workstations and the sleek LCDs take. Some cheap ass instructor is filming while he is advising his student projects... for the school's promotional DVD. I found that very uncomforting... and left the room... without giving it a second thought.
It is now almost 6:00 PM and I am filling out a form for Final project delivery... in my hands is the final copy of the film... burned on DVD... and I am saying to myself... finally it is over.
Nobody has seen what I have been doing for the last four months. I mean nobody. Not a single soul. What is about? How does it look like? Is it religious? Are you happy with it? Where is it? Are the questions that I have been ignoring for the last four months…
Somehow they all believe that is an amazing piece that I have been so secret about. But I tell them it is not. Because my brain thinks that it is not. It falls short on many aspects that I tried hard to control. But in the end I can say for sure... it is whatever it is... whatever it was supposed to be... it is an outcome of an organic process... undefinable... by definition very unprofessional and at the same time very creative.
When will I let anybody see it is still a question I don't have an answer for... and will anybody like it or understand it... do I even care... well, we will see in the next couple of weeks... here is a pdf draft of about the film
2 comments:
sometimes one put oneself against unrealistic measures which can be quite straining.
but looking at the previous quality of your work,this is bound to be good too. (and here Iam not sticking with any expectations)
Thanks guys :) I might be screening it (fancy word for showing) next week at school... and also putting a small downloadable version here... its gonna be a big download... but I hope its gonna be worth it...
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